symbiosis

                                When a couple begins a relationship, things often feel exciting and full of hope. But sometimes, after a short time, one of them begins to change. That change usually comes from deep insecurity — one partner doesn’t feel confident and tries to hide it through control. That’s when emotional manipulation begins: jealousy, blackmail, and possessive behaviors disguised as love.

At first, it's hard to notice. The other person is in love and chooses to tolerate things — small injustices, frequent calls, suspicion, lies, fights — even giving up friends or social events just to “keep the peace.” Slowly, this control becomes normal. And eventually, it leads to abuse.

Often, the root of this behavior comes from childhood. When someone grows up in a dysfunctional family without affection or healthy emotional guidance, they may repeat those same toxic patterns in their adult relationships. Frustration builds over the years, distorting their emotional development. This creates a cycle — like a snowball rolling downhill — growing bigger and more dangerous over time.

Soon, it begins to affect more than just the couple. Friends, children, parents, even jobs suffer. The person experiencing abuse may not realize what’s happening until it’s too late. They become angry, depressed, isolated, and full of self-doubt. And without help, the damage spreads.

Some people mistake this intensity for passion. They become addicted to emotional highs and constant adrenaline. But that’s not love — that’s codependency. It includes control, jealousy, and even threats or physical and sexual violence. And once the pattern begins, it’s hard to break.

If these behaviors appear early in a relationship — moving too fast, isolation from others, control disguised as care — it’s a warning sign. Without intervention, the relationship often ends in sadness, abuse, and emotional ruin. If children are involved, the damage repeats. They grow up repeating what they saw, continuing the cycle.

Breaking this pattern is crucial. The first step is awareness. If someone is in an abusive relationship, they should seek help — through therapy, community support, or legal action if needed. Silence only protects the abuser. Speaking up can save lives.

           

       

The Wishes of Heart.

I´m tired, stressed, and sometimes a sensation of anxiety, don't let me breathe, locked

myself inside my own world, my weary mind make me sleep on the carpet, doesn’t matter

anything, one sensation of guilty and undone, crushes me, I losing my identity

as consequence divorce, I got so many questions unanswered about my dysfunctional

relationship. 

        Few months after I trying to get calm, although feel undone, questions around my

mind, whether I lost my last chance or I have wasted my time.  However, I do not know

or what can I do. Something rare, and confused, just I want to find some peace in my mind,

but I can´t hide my truth,  was bad experience get a divorce, but occasionally necessary

make a deal when we don´t find solution, and doesn't works couple, however if everyone

needs another way, better looking for other opportunity to keep on or make a new

relationship. Anyway I have to do one step forward, and begin again after a deeper

lesson,  also started to understand some things, therefore, looking for sense to live my life,

and my sincere desire to be better person, was the most important thing to me. 

   

     Considering this, my ego has broken, without wings to fly, but avid to start again.

 My first time bend on my knees, and ask for humility to me make feel a new sensation to

living, and find one way to feel happiness. my weary mind, starting to feel so good,

I am learning to feel better day by day, I am beginning to be self-sufficient, and persistent

to search answers to find the word  God as fact as fact I become conscious of God, I knew

that God give us if we ask. The Bible is full of promises that God has for each of us.

 My goal is discover the promise that the Lord has intended for me. but  I discover one lack

on my life,  I mean, I needed strongly faith, that big problem to I don’t know how I can

resolve, because I don´t know what is faith, and how I can get faith in my life, one

important reason to get one spiritual style to life. 

          Many times I claimed to see Jesus Christ, or see a signal from him, also a ray of light

shining my room,  my thirst for him, preceded to change my heart, I thought, I not sure how

is working that, although I keep encourage, and waiting for him.

       I have had to accepting helping by Christian man, but he had abandoned me,

and refused to teach me the God's Word, because I didn't want follow his recommendation,

I couldn't let to heard my favorite music, he never know how much  hurt me, that ugly

attitude. Is really hard cross the line, to spiritual life world, however, was most strong the

wishes of my heart.

 

    Practicing, believe every day, in a sane way to obtain good results, pursuit to get faith

was my goal and trust in my Heavenly Father.   

    

        The loneliness was my first dare, and learn to be persistent, to be capable about

enjoying the simple things. For instance my  blue jeans make me feel happy, because is my   

favorite,  soon I see changes in my thoughts,  my point of view through Heavenly Father

let me do a positive things, try to be obedient, of course God knows everything about us.

          Our sweet Lord knows what is better for our lives, the especial moments planed by

Him, comes to help us.

       I remember that I asked a lot wishes every time, but God didn’t

heard me, and tire to ask to Heavenly Father many things, my wishes

disappear, and ask less than before, I thought that He denied me all, I felt disappointed, for

pretending a lot, so I got a conclusion. “ I'm not ready to receive blessings from Him”.

maybe was not my time, but I keep on trust firmly in God, unless I didn’t have an

accomplished wishes, sadly I see that my faith was a weak,  I intend again

to pursue the faith by the time I forget almost all my petitions, but I receive some

revelations on my dreams, my older daughter born, and two year  after my son born in the

same month and one day before my birthday, only I knows that means God never forget.

He gives the real happiness and sense our life in the right moment.

EROS-TANATOS

Charles Baudelaire

Por alguna circunstancia hoy he tropezado con algunos poemas (Las Flores del mal) de
Charles Baudelaire: Poeta, novelista, controvertido por la voracidad de sus textos, y critico de arte francés, nacido en París en 1821.      Agrego un poema que me ha gustado.           


                                  TRISTEZAS DE LA LUNA

Esta noche la luna sueña con más pereza,
Cual si fuera una bella hundida entre cojines
Que acaricia con mano discreta y ligerísima,
Antes de adormecerse, el contorno del seno.

Sobre el dorso de seda de deslizantes nubes,
Moribunda, se entrega a prolongados éxtasis,
Y pasea su mirada sobre visiones blancas,
Que ascienden al azul igual que floraciones.

Cuando sobre este globo, con languidez ociosa,
Ella deja rodar una furtiva lágrima,
Un piadoso poeta, enemigo del sueño,

De su mano en el hueco, coge la fría gota
como un fragmento de ópalo de irisados reflejos.
Y la guarda en su pecho, lejos del sol voraz.



                      

Political View

                              

The Political groups usually break some rules and fight between tem, the law and government depend of parliament, and make decisions like the legalized marijuana. For economic circumstances, especially if some political parties have possibilities to wins. Now the drugs has gaining ground the political life, is some countries, especially in USA

for example, admit this weed, before prohibited and penalized.

Now a new industry  is coming and represent millions of dollars profit.

in the north of México many people cultivate the marijuana, many people is powerful and  govern fall down  because they have the money,  this activity and others more goes increasing. I think that we don’t now the real situation inside political class.

I have a conclusion, the marijuana never end, in Mexico we 

have a "saying" weed never dies.

   Maybe everybody wants to legalize this alkaloid, in some 

universities discover the benefits  of marijuana, in others universities they found many risks, Is incredible how change the things Addiction is a very serious case. Before dangerous now medicine and recreative drug.

   Perhaps México has a big effort to prevent this production, but is a raw reality, Mexico lost the war versus drugs, maybe is necessary forget many murder and forget the prisoner caused for this weed. Better change the rules with this modern world, why not, México too. Maybe things change pursuit the peace in the border lines between USA- Mexico.

   In Europe, like Holland by governments, consider pertinent the use. But the effects will be many addicts, I think.

   So, I would refer, regularize and pay sales taxes for this drug, just to medicine, anyway the best prescription from the doctors to sick people, however the ignorance and poverty two factors should be every world fight versus these calamities, yet the government should work to eradicate this kind of problem, we are blessed whose church have worry for the poor people, because they receive help to improve.

   Consequently we should reach the best solution, so we should respect the right between the people to prefer, and need this weed, and the govern make a law to protect each one and pay a expensive tax how the cigarettes. in addition the society in a few years will accept like best solutions for us, also we need vote and express our right to be heard.