I´m tired, stressed, and sometimes a
sensation of anxiety, don't let me breathe, locked
myself inside my own world, my weary
mind make me sleep on the carpet, doesn’t matter
anything, one sensation of guilty
and undone, crushes me, I losing my identity
as consequence divorce, I got so
many questions unanswered about my dysfunctional
relationship.
Few months after I trying to get calm, although feel undone, questions around
my
mind, whether I lost my last chance
or I have wasted my time. However, I do not know
or what can I do. Something rare,
and confused, just I want to find some peace in my mind,
but I can´t hide my truth, was
bad experience get a divorce, but occasionally necessary
make a deal when we don´t find
solution, and doesn't works couple, however if everyone
needs another way, better looking
for other opportunity to keep on or make a new
relationship. Anyway I have to do
one step forward, and begin again after a deeper
lesson, also started to
understand some things, therefore, looking for sense to live my life,
and my sincere desire to be better
person, was the most important thing to me.
Considering
this, my ego has broken, without wings to fly, but avid to start again.
My first time bend on my
knees, and ask for humility to me make feel a new sensation to
living, and find one way to feel
happiness. my weary mind, starting to feel so good,
I am learning to feel better day by
day, I am beginning to be self-sufficient, and persistent
to search answers to find the word
God as fact as fact I become conscious of God, I knew
that God give us if we ask. The
Bible is full of promises that God has for each of us.
My goal is discover the
promise that the Lord has intended for me. but I discover one lack
on my life, I mean, I needed
strongly faith, that big problem to I don’t know how I can
resolve, because I don´t know what
is faith, and how I can get faith in my life, one
important reason to get one
spiritual style to life.
Many times I claimed to see Jesus Christ, or see a signal from him, also
a ray of light
shining my room, my thirst for
him, preceded to change my heart, I thought, I not sure how
is working that, although I keep
encourage, and waiting for him.
I have had to accepting helping by Christian man, but he had abandoned me,
and refused to teach me the God's
Word, because I didn't want follow his recommendation,
I couldn't let to heard my favorite
music, he never know how much hurt me, that ugly
attitude. Is really hard cross the
line, to spiritual life world, however, was most strong the
wishes of my heart.
Practicing,
believe every day, in a sane way to obtain good results, pursuit to get faith
was my goal and trust in my Heavenly
Father.
The loneliness was my first dare, and learn to be persistent, to be capable about
enjoying the simple things. For
instance my blue jeans make me feel happy, because is my
favorite, soon I see changes
in my thoughts, my point of view through Heavenly Father
let me do a positive things, try to
be obedient, of course God knows everything about us.
Our sweet Lord knows what is better for our lives, the especial moments planed
by
Him, comes to help us.
I remember that I asked a lot wishes every time, but God didn’t
heard me, and tire to ask to
Heavenly Father many things, my wishes
disappear, and ask less than before,
I thought that He denied me all, I felt disappointed, for
pretending a lot, so I got a
conclusion. “ I'm not ready to receive blessings from Him”.
maybe was not my time, but I
keep on trust firmly in God, unless I didn’t have an
accomplished wishes, sadly I see
that my faith was a weak, I intend again
to pursue the faith by the time I
forget almost all my petitions, but I receive some
revelations on my dreams, my older
daughter born, and two year after my son born in the
same month and one day before my
birthday, only I knows that means God never forget.
He gives the real happiness and sense our life
in the right moment.
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